My husband and I then talked about it and decided that we should be home Christmas Eve and Christmas day, after all we do have another child at home and he deserves to have a Christmas even if we don't feel very "Christmas-y". I felt guilty leaving the hospital to "celebrate", when my daughter was still strapped onto gadgets and gizmos. My husband assured me that my daughter has a team of nurses to take care of her and that she will be fine. I remember asking the NICU nurse if it was okay for us to leave her for a couple of days and she assured me that it was fine and I choked on my tears as we were saying goodbye.
We do need to give our other child our time. He needs us too.
So we went home, I cooked, we had a meal, we baked cookies for Santa, we had a small party and we exchanged presents.
Although this Christmas didn't really feel much like the holidays, next Christmas was just a year away and we are going to celebrate it as a family of four.
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Here is a picture of my son...
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