Thursday, January 06, 2011

a NEW year

This past year was a whirlwind of sorts for our family. We went through moments of grief, of sadness, of fear, of doubt, of weakness, and a long period where our faith has been tested. Nonetheless, through the help of God and our relentless holding on to our faith, we were able to rise above the challenges that the past year has brought.

It was around this time last year when my Isabella was freshly diagnosed... a dark time in my life that I never thought I would have recovered from. It is with shame that I admit that i felt defeated, hopeless... lifeless. But... as the saying goes, "Time heals all wounds".... and I would have to say that this saying has a ring of truth to it. However, I found myself identifying with a less popular saying than the one aforementioned, and that is this... "Scar tissue is stronger than regular tissue". And here I am, a year after, not yet fully recovered, but I am proud to say that I am on a positive path of recovering. I feel much more stronger, and I am looking forward to this coming year because it just feels really promising, and that in itself is a gift.

We've learned valuable lessons this year... we've learned how to find cheer in the midst of the noise and chaos, we've learned how to find joy in the littlest of gifts, and we've learned to let go of trying to have control over things. Most improtantly we learned about a deeper level of trust that I believe is called true "faith".

We have been blessed by having the support of a lot of people that prayed for us, and encouraged us, and despite the rocky moments of 2010, my family and I have found that this year has been a very fruitful year, for it made us better people.... it made us who we are today.

Happy New Year everyone!