Thursday, January 06, 2011

a NEW year

This past year was a whirlwind of sorts for our family. We went through moments of grief, of sadness, of fear, of doubt, of weakness, and a long period where our faith has been tested. Nonetheless, through the help of God and our relentless holding on to our faith, we were able to rise above the challenges that the past year has brought.

It was around this time last year when my Isabella was freshly diagnosed... a dark time in my life that I never thought I would have recovered from. It is with shame that I admit that i felt defeated, hopeless... lifeless. But... as the saying goes, "Time heals all wounds".... and I would have to say that this saying has a ring of truth to it. However, I found myself identifying with a less popular saying than the one aforementioned, and that is this... "Scar tissue is stronger than regular tissue". And here I am, a year after, not yet fully recovered, but I am proud to say that I am on a positive path of recovering. I feel much more stronger, and I am looking forward to this coming year because it just feels really promising, and that in itself is a gift.

We've learned valuable lessons this year... we've learned how to find cheer in the midst of the noise and chaos, we've learned how to find joy in the littlest of gifts, and we've learned to let go of trying to have control over things. Most improtantly we learned about a deeper level of trust that I believe is called true "faith".

We have been blessed by having the support of a lot of people that prayed for us, and encouraged us, and despite the rocky moments of 2010, my family and I have found that this year has been a very fruitful year, for it made us better people.... it made us who we are today.

Happy New Year everyone!


Mihaela said...

Happy New Year!
I loved this post. It resonates in me in so many levels. Although we are in year 2 of the journey I still remember all those feelings of fear, despair and desire to be in control of it all. And later came the faithfulness, the letting go, the joy of the simple things, and so much more. I too think we have become different people, in a good way.

And at this point, there's one new tiny feeling among the good and positive ones, that I just isolated recently - the guilt. I know it is not my fault, or anybody's fault, but my heart still cringes from time to time with the thought: "Oh, what have I done to her...". And it's stupid, and it's part of the let go, and it's part of the faith, and yet, it's a little monster of it's own. (But I started some yoga classes, so I expect it to disappear very soon.)

I wish you a wonderful year ahead. Happy, healthy, joyous. For you all deserve it.

I love your writing.

Kisses4Kaylee said...

Cheers, my friend, to a Happy, Healthy, Prosperous, Peaceful, Hospital Visit-Reducing, Stress-Alleviating, Milestone-Achieving, and All-over Promising New Year! Your family portrait is absolutely gorgeous, and the photo of your children is equally stunning. Lots of love to you all from New Jersey~ today and always! xo

Min said...

happy new year! i hope all the happiness will be yours on this new year! kisses n hugs to beautiful Isay...

Hilary said...

You have a beautiful family!

Kristy said...

Beautiful family pictures! I hope you all have a very Happy New Year!